Dax Shepard bravely opened up about his sobriety journey on the most recent episode of his Armchair Expert podcast.
The actor, who had been sober for 16 years, revealed during the Thursday, September 25 episode that he recently relapsed and had been taking Vicodin for months following a number of accidents that hurt his hand and shoulder.
The episode, titled “Day 7,” discussed his new journey to sobriety and how he finally found the strength to open up about his struggles to his wife, Kristen Bell, and his podcast co-host, Monica Padman.
Shepard also revealed his sobriety started to become a little shady after his father got sick with cancer eight years ago.
While also recovering from a motorcycle accident, Shepard flew back home to Michigan to take care of his father during the last few weeks of his life.
His father wanted to take Percocet to deal with his pain, and Shepard decided to take some with him.
“The no. 1 thing we had in common was we were both f—king addicts and we had never used anything together,” he shared on the podcast.
“And we sat there stoned and looked at the lake. And in that moment, I felt elation and I was just happy.”
Despite taking the pills eight years ago, Shepard didn’t experience any fallout and was able to move on without using any other substances.
However, following a surgery a few months ago, Shepard was prescribed pills that he then began to abuse.
“And I’ve not ever yet bought them. And then I do…For the last eight weeks maybe, I don’t know…I’m on them all day. I’m allowed to be on them at some dosage because I have a prescription,” he explained.
“And then I’m also augmenting that. And then all the prescriptions run out and I’m now just taking 30 mil Oxys that I’ve bought whenever I decide I can do [it].”
He also started lying to the people around him — including Bell and Padman — and realized fairly quickly that he was struggling.
Shepard brought Bell and Padman together and coped to his pill addiction, which he admits was one of the hardest days of his life.
“My fear was that if I have one day, I’m going to drink and I’m going to do coke. I haven’t drank a beer in 16 years and I haven’t snorted a line in 16 years,” he said.
“And if I have one day, then I might as well f—king have what I really want and then start over. And my fear of that is if I do that, it may take me three years to get that back in the cage and I may die.”
The 45-year-old then opened up to close friends about his addiction and attended a meeting where he shared what was happening in his life.
Despite feeling shame for what transpired, Shepard feels optimistic towards the future and hopes that by revealing his truth he’ll help others who are struggling.